Why the hate, mate?

Since I probably won’t be writing anymore posts for a while, at least until my exams are over, I will be writing one more post because…I’m a writing geek without a social life or hobbies.

On the trending page of YouTube, a music video has been going viral with it accumulating about 6.3 Million views in 2 days.

The MV has obtained mixed reviews due to the artist’s decision to base the song around a suicidal story of a bullied gay teen.

I admit it, its not the first music video to choose to dabble in the sob-story LGBT love scenario i.e. Troye Sivan – Blue Neighbourhood Trilogy but the comments are shocking to say the least:

I’ve been scrolling down the YouTube comment section for about five minutes and there are so many homophobic, rude and horrible comments which I pray and hope that majority are from trolls.

This just proves how disgusting humans can actually be when shown something that they may not find ‘normal’.

I’m pretty straight but that doesn’t mean that I can act like an ignorant bitch to others just because I believe that my opinion is a right that my country allows me to have.

I live in a religious household yet I choose to hold pretty free-spirited thinking and while my parents and most of my friends may disagree with my choice to support LGBT people, I still firmly put my faith in equality for everyone.

Now, back to the MV.

The story itself is about an african-american boy who is gay and is in the closet about it until his father finds out about his magazines. He gets lectured and is under despair, that leads to him seeking refuge in his friend’s house. (Not sure if he was fucking his friend but) In the morning, his friend’s father finds him sleeping beside his friend in bed, practically naked except for their boxers.

He gets judged by the friend’s father and leaves in shame while the friendship between his friend and himself is broken. At school, he gets bullied in the boy’s locker room with a ‘dick’ vandalised onto his locker.

The boy then contemplates suicide and had almost pulled a gun to end his life when his teacher gave him an act of kindness that gave him the courage to continue and the story ends with him being married to another man, his husband and adopting a kid.

You may wonder, what did this video do to trigger so many people?

The question is not what it did but rather what it chose to show.

The story aside, the song is sung between 2 perspectives. The boy that’s struggling with suicide and the telephone operator which is working on suicide hotline with the boy, trying to convince him not to kill himself with reasoning.

That itself is already a delicate topic that delves into people’s misconceptions with suicide and depression and in fact, the artist had created the song with the purpose of being something that can save a life.

The song title is even the National suicide prevention hotline for crisps’ sake!

Yet why do people choose to criticise and mock such a beautiful message?

2 things.

1) The subjects.

2)The portrayal of the topic.

One, we have been brought up to believe that females should be prim and proper while males are to be buff and masculine. These two stereotypes are engrained into our mind since day 1 where girls are told to have special treatment and guys should support the girls.

In the video, we see no girls and instead a guy that’s showing his weaker side. His emotional side. His vulnerable side.

We are taught to believe that men in movies are heroic and brave and never seem to shed any tears but we forget that men are not robots and rather, humans. The main character of the video has been pushed around by others and cries which is unlike the macho men we see in hollywood.

This makes others look at the men in disgust as if they are from another species or aliens. The MC also likes guys which also goes against another societal rule we have been brought up to believe in.

Male + Female = good

Male + Male = bad

This cannot be changed easily even with the acceptance of many, some may still remain skeptics. While others may argue that religion is to blame, I do agree that religion plays a part but it mainly relies on the mindset of the person and how they were brought up.

Like I said before, my family and friends don’t really agree with my thinking but its mostly due to my country where same-sex marriages are banned and looked down upon and even called slurs.

I try to dispell such thinking but once its drilled into your mind, its really hard to change it.

Two, the story is shown in a really raw setting without any sugar-coating or gag moments like in Selena Gomez’s Bad liar.

It is also different from Troye Sivan’s Blue Neighbourhood Trilogy in the romanticization aspect. I like Troye but there is a certain fantasy part of his videos in how they would get the viewers to know the two lovers better and root for them to fall in love.

Logic never really shows the backstory behind the lovers but rather focuses on how badly gay people are being treated. The awkward moments between the MC and the father, the judgement of the MC’s father and his classmates.

Its very blunt I suppose. Personally, I wasn’t very impacted by it but I did feel the emotions of the MC through the lyrics and how the lyrics are used to describe the emotions like:

With my previous post, this had made me lose faith in humanity yet again. When we were in 2010 we had predicted that teleportation pads would be invented but it seems like instead of evolving forwards, we did it backwards.

Where’s the TARDIS to turn back time?

I was actually not planning on continuing to write on this blog UNTIL I read through my news feed.

Squashed between an article on ‘top 10 hairstyles of Sam Winchester that would make Cover Girl jealous’ and ‘WHAAAT? The 13th doctor may be a female?!?!’ was this:

I’m an avid fan of comics, games and Anime so I do admire cosplayers and the work they do to achieve the likeness of their characters but this is not something I’ll expect mighty Superman’s partner to do.

If you’re out of the loop, a white nationalist march was held at Charlottesville which catered to supporting the belief of White superiority.

In short, it was like a reverse pride parade. Instead of Love Wins All, it was more like Whites Win All.

As a strong supporter for equality and myself being a History/Literature student, I was not the biggest fan of this ’cause’.

It just brings up the question of remembering what has happened in the past. In History, I’ve learnt about Hitler’s Germany and his idealist concept of the ‘Aryan Superiority’ which basically translated to ‘White Superiority’ and look at where that brought us.

The white nationalist march was led by the group of Neo-Nazis coined as ‘Unite The Right’ and has left a mess of mayhem in its trail. There were reports of 19 people injured and 1 killed that were apparently counter-protestors.

What good do these people think they’re bringing other than defiling the European race.

Firstly, as someone who’s not of the white race, I find it to be strange that they would want their race to be put upon a pedestal as compared to the other races.

What is so special about having a lighter skin tone that can get you to hurt innocent people and dance away on your tip toes with the excuse of ‘its just an accident’. Is there actually some magical secret about white people that I don’t know about?

Do you guys actually shit rainbows and have pet Leprechauns that can help you find gold? If so, then hell, you deserve to be special.

But if not, then what makes you have the right to whine for special privileges for yourselves over others. that is not equality mate, that’s selfishness.

I thought that we were past living in the 80s with the wars and racial segregation but apparently not. I guess we should have seen it coming with the comeback of trends from the olden days reappearing in the modern times.

I’m looking at you mister choker and corset.

The fact that Trump is president is also not helping anything, in fact, he has even remarked that the ones causing the chaos are scott-free due to their permit and instead of addressing the issue like a good president should, he instead chose to direct the blame to the counter-protestors who ‘lacked a permit’.

And if Trump had bothered to check his facts, he would actually have found out that the counter-protestors did indeed have a permit! Wowza! Not like it mattered because people were still getting gassed by the riot police.

So my lovely readers, what do you think of humanity today? And just how close do you think we are to the apocalypse and extinction?

Judging by my news feed, I hope that you have stocked up on can beans and a lifetime supply of toilet paper because earth doesn’t seem like such a jolly place to live anymore!


That is the real question.

I’m too furious to think straight so please endure this nonsensical babble until I can stop my fingers from searching up the nearest voodoo specialized shop within my vicinity and purchase a pack of 99 cent needles.


I’m no maestro when it comes to delicacy in fact, I’m about as blunt as a 2B pencil after a student’s end year examinations. Still, I am not exaggerating when I say that the world has a grudge against me or something. I mean getting hit in the face three times in a row is bad enough but this just takes the cake.

Recently, I was participating in a film competition of some kind that runs across a few different schools throughout my country as the director of my film group. It would not be a lie to say that I was pretty much the Cinderella of my film group. You would think that the director would get the privilege to sit in a fancy ass chair and scream ‘CUT!’ or ‘ACTION!’ while sipping on a overpriced coffee, occasionally adjusting the beret on my head but NOo.

Me being the director meant that I had to hold responsibility for all the mishaps that happened in my group and when I say all…I mean ALL. I had to deal with odd jobs like replacing lazy crew members that slacked off due to ‘reasons’ and dealing with my demon instructor.

On the last week of my holidays when we were due to hand in our film, my editor ‘miraculously’ had her whole week booked up with leadership training camps and ironically, church camps. Maybe it was a calling from God that directing isn’t something for me.


I had to scramble around after that because we were the only group missing the USB cable required to connect the camera to the laptop for the editing programme and unfortunately (Or should I say, fortunate is not something I am) the one USB cable has a specific plug in shape and that led to this scenario.

We had agreed to meet up at the library at 4 but then while I arrived on time, there was no one there. I was a nice person and waited…and waited…for 50 minutes. Keep in mind that this was the last day of holidays before school reopened. And somehow, some-freaking-how. I forgot how my editor looked like because Mr Jackass, my demonic instructor, had kept reshuffling our group and I didn’t know this girl.

Picture this. You’re standing outside a public library for 50 minutes and there’s like 4 girls waiting outside the library that look around the same age as you. You have no idea which one is your actual editor and they’ve been waiting there for as long as you have. You decide to circle around the library a few times both inside and out while waiting. Then you give up and go home.


Then of freaking course, it turns out that your editor had been in the bathroom this ENTIRE time. I would not be anymore annoyed if it didn’t start raining the moment I decided to go back to the library to meet up with her. Oh and my other friend who also has the wire, the reason why I couldn’t meet up with her or see anyone was because on that ONE day.

The train broke down for an hour.

So you think this is just a small problem. PFTTTT. You’ve seen nothing yet…

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Side fact: After the meetup, my editor finds out that she has a gaming laptop that’s not even compatible with the editing programme so in the first place, she didn’t even need the wire.

Side slippery slide fact: Mr Kelvin, you the real MVP. I wish you were our instructor instead of Mr Jackass because unlike a certain someone, you know how to give critical feedback rather than just being a pretentious critic. Plus I swear I could hear the angelic chorus of heaven when you actually complimented an idea I pitched.


Once school started, on the first week of school, I had to stay back from 3, straight after school, to 6, when my school closes just to assist my editor for 3 days in a row and during that time, I had lent my spare USB cable to the editor of my friend out of the good will of my heart. But I guess the world plans to crumble the tiny amount of kindness I have in my soul by making the editor A) Forget to return my USB cable, B) Forgot where she left my USB cable and C)Not a shit on where it is.

In fact, the damn cameraman had to be the one to tell me where my wire was and it was in the worst place imaginable. It was locked up in the computer lab’s private room in one out of 4 camera bags and she didn’t know which one it was in. Oh did I mention that my CCA only happens once a week so I could only get it back at the end of the next week.

Flash forward to the present.

I had caught a flu bug from my brother and was feeling utterly miserable not only because of my sickness but also because I had to do 3 projects in the span of a week and complete the never-ending stack of homework piling on my desk. So obviously, I was slacking off at home, watching the Summer 2017 release of anime which I’ll update later.

We had to have our principal’s approval of our films before it could be sent off and he is the most irresponsible, harsh and unkind principal I have ever seen. Let’s dub him, Mr..Pipi because his name is somewhat similar to a word that revolves around bathrooms. And whenever people see him, they would want him to ‘piss’ off anyways.


Either way, I had disliked him since his appearance as the new principal because of his idiotic rules (Which I would get to in another post) and his judgement of students. Especially when it came down to our films which was due on Friday. We had scrambled to edit everything so we could hand it to him for reviewing on the week before but not only did he delay everything to the last day before the due date for the submission for the competition but also requested that we had to stay back on Thursday to ‘touch up’.

I get that a principal is busy and blah blah but we had rushed our butts off to edit this for him and yet he only tells us on the second last day that we had to ‘edit more’. Also, he had asked us to stay back but he, himself didn’t turn up or even set a proper time for us to edit for his approval. In the end, he never responded to my CCA’s teacher’s messages and we were all free from imprisonment…at least that was what I thought.


Keeping in mind that I had been working on this film since early march for about 5 months straight, I was really proud of this little film I created not only because it was the first time I had stepped out of my comfort zone to become the leader of a group but also because I had put my blood (Literally. I broke my ankle), sweat (We had to camp out in the sun while traffic was running) and tears (I cried like a baby when I heard that we were finally finished) into this production and for an amateur, I thought it was pretty good.

“All is fair in war and love”

Or so they say. When I was absent for 2 days, I didn’t attend CCA and during my absence, Mr Pipi decided to take matters into his own hands and decide if our films were ‘good enough’ to represent our school. Being a humble, demure (snorts) girl, I was willing to accept whatever fate had in store for me.

What I didn’t expect was that even though the competition allowed 3 video entries from each school, only 2 films made it out alive from Mr Pipi’s scrutinized selections. One of them was my friend’s group which was a food docummentary that had been groomed and specially pampered by Mr Jackass to win and the other was my group which was a black and white film about cyber bullying.

Surprised? I was. Usually things don’t go my way unless I’m some kind of Shounen hero destined to save the world from the film freaks or something.


I was ecstatic…until I realized that Mr Pipi had decided to change my film’s name. Yes, My DAMN film. I’m not a film buff or anything but I do have great pride in my products of artistry and no matter how shitty and low grade the products are, I still like them and so without my permission, he changes the name of my film which I had painstakingly done a lot of research to find.

Digital Desolation. Simple but catchy. The ‘Digital’ is a reference to the use of phones and cyber-bullying in the film while the ‘Desolation’ refers to loneliness, a desolated wasteland in a manner of speaking which fits the theme of alienation and ostracizing someone. Its even used in the Hobbits for crying out loud!


Yet somehow, the ‘Desolation’ gets twisted to mean death. DEATH. And because our school’s a prim and proper tight arse, son of a bitch, we have to censor that word because its too ‘harsh’ like what the fuck. Death is a natural state of life, the opposite of life. Even if desolation means death, what is so bad about something we go though at the end of our life cycle. It’s not even a bad word, we even use it in science.

EDIT (8/20/17) : Actually I found out from my friend that the word he wanted to change was ‘demise’ rather than desolation but still, same premise. Another team was also disqualified because of ‘karma’ literally being the name and that we’re a christian school.

Here’s the irony, my film involves a suicide scene. I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.



After this film competition, we also have to participate in a school project that lasts until next year when we graduate. I was absent so I was randomly shoved into a group. Bad luck being on my side, I was the only one out of my group of friends to go into the group of OP bastards not that I hated them but I was the ‘second-rate scriptwriter’ as compared to my CCA’s president.

My producer was fought over because she had impressed the members of my CCA with how she fought for her group when in reality, I was the one who had the guts to write a angry/polite email to Mr Jackass and beg/threaten him into reviewing our script once more. There’s a lot of things people don’t realize happening behind the scenes whether it involves me having to wrestle rights to allow us to film at a location of scout out locations by climbing 20 flights of stairs.


I wrote the original script and tried so hard to assist my ‘scriptwriter’ in re-tuning it but decided to do everything myself at the end while letting her steal my name. I had to deal with lazy cameraman/assistants that were more interested in playing games than checking angles and diva-like actors who complained for retakes.

I don’t mind if people take credit for the stuff I do but a little bit of appreciation won’t hurt anyone. For the film, I had taken up like 5 roles yet I was only credited as a dull, unimaginative, meek director. I had tried so hard for things to go my way but putting a smile on your face and shrugging it off never ends well.


I don’t care if people label me as selfish or arrogant or rude but it would not be a lie to say that I had done more than others can even imagine. It’s just that they don’t notice it.

Someday, I would want to be able to interact more with others and actually be able to be credited for all the things I have done but life isn’t always fair. Its just to me, life is just really really really specially cruel. Like a kick in the balls.

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Beware of the ‘offended’ and ‘triggered’

As the title says, I am in no way trying to cause a swarm of social justice warriors to drown me in pitchforks and 50ft tall paragraphs but rather am writing purely to express my views on societal issues of the world so…call off the attack dogs and don’t get your knickers in a twist.


So, what exactly can constitute for being ‘offensive’ or ‘triggering’ as the meme hipsters say. For those Patrick Stars of the world, to be triggered is to say that something had an offensive effect on the reader or watcher. The word is usually used in situations where the person is really sensitive and easily ‘triggered’.

Maybe the first thing that comes to mind from the word ‘offensive’ or ‘triggered’ would be race, religion or sexuality. If so, then you are both right and wrong. nothing is set in stone in terms of how offensive it is to someone. Let’s use an example:

Person: Yo, did you send me that fake number of that supposed ‘model’?

Friend: Lol. Yup.

Person: You’re a fucking asshole. I hope you die in a ditch and have your cat stolen by a raging orangutan. You assbutt.


Now, is that conversation offensive to you? If you answer yes, you are not quite wrong, same thing if you answered yes because it depends on the situation as I said before. If it was a complete stranger or someone that holds a position of respect, the comeback of the person is completely unnecessary and rude.

Now, think of it again but imagine the friend being close to you. If your friendship is stronger than a strand of hair, you will probably brush their comment off and take it with a pinch of salt.


Let’s have a counter for the total number of Supernatural Gifs that I can fit into this post. Hell, I may even break the goddamn Guinness world record for it.

Back to the conversation, everyone has a different degree sense of offensiveness and what’s triggering to one may not apply for the other. Now, with that in mind, let’s talk about the recent news of ‘fatness’ and what others view on the topic.

I believe that when you think of fat, such imagery may pop up in your brain.


Or this.


No, not Jensen Ackles’s angelic face but the constant eating which is a misconception about fatness. Here’s the thing, people are becoming more conformed to comfort as years go by, the invention of air conditioning and the internet definitely helped that factor.

So, add into the equation the easy access of food from both online and convenient stores and you have a route to obesity.


A few years ago, the word fat may be associated as just the word opposite to skinny or thin with no other thought paid into it however, with the constant stream of chiseled, orange tanned, models with flowing hair and flat stomachs, the word has morphed into an insult.

The stereotype among girls is that the word ‘fat’ would be used to tell someone that they need to diet or lose weight which can often be a bad thing depending on their size. Also, fat is now a foreign word and instead ‘curvy’ or ‘plus-sized’ dominate the market for slightly heavier girls.


This is…still sort of Supernatural-esque? A Castiel cosplay which I like and is of a plus-sized chick, win win.

While many consider plus-sized and curvy to be sugar coating the word fat, others may argue on that factor with plus-sized and curvy people being more of the average sized women rather than overweight people.

Examples of Plus-sized models are: (I’m sorry that Supernatural is not a favorite among models)

Ashley Graham


Tess Holliday


Be honest, what’s the first word that comes to your mind when you see the girls.

Is it fat? And if so, don’t feel bad because its not a bad word. Its just how you’re conditioned to believe that its a bad word. In fact, a bad word doesn’t technically exist, bad words are just words that you are taught to be unacceptable and again, it varies from person to person. One parent might say that ‘damn’ is a bad word while another might be okay with it.

Its just a matter of thinking. Now, what I am concerned about is not the backlash the girls get for being heavier than the average woman but rather how heavy they weigh. Statistics say that the average weight of a female is 70.2kg.

An example would be this:


Oh wait…t-this…PFFTTTT I totally did not think Osric Chau was a chick or like put this in just to up the Supernatural reference counter…COUGH mo-moving on…


Catherine Tate

A perfect example of an incredible actress for Doctor Who and a woman of average size. Now say all you want for the fact that she may not be incredibly thin but you cannot deny the fact that she’s not fat.

Now, let’s consult Oxford Dictionary on what the definition of ‘fat’ is…

FAT: (of a person or animal) having a large amount of excess flesh.

Huh…so…being fat…is not even an insult but rather a comment.

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So, what is fat then? Simply, being fat is nothing more than being the apple to the pie, the crust to the pizza. Being fat is just a label and nothing more because with skinny, you need to contradict it with fat. Do I consider the women above fat? Maybe Tess, only because her body proportions are not consistent with her face and the high chance of her being obese at 5ft tall.

But do I consider that a bad thing? Yes and no. Its good that she’s confident in showing off their bodies but she should also keep an eye on what she eats only because the consumption of certain fatty foods can lead to illnesses.

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But in the end, its a free world. If you disagree with my view, feel free to speak out. I just want to spread the message that fat is not a bad word, just a misunderstood word. So long as you’re healthy and happy, I have nothing to complain.

Just remember that we’re not Dean Winchester.



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Humanity’s lovely hatred for everyone

Before I start my rant, I would like to address the title which is a hypocritical one which I believe is the perfect way to label the entirety of the human race. That includes me, you and my lemon tea so please keep in mind that this is my opinion and you’re free to share your own opinion that can contradict mine or compliment, in the comments!


Recently the tragedy that occurred in Manchester, England impacted many lives and many attitudes. If you’re not up to date, a few weeks or days ago, a suicide bomber had exploded himself near Ariana Grande’s concert in Manchester, sending many people to the hospital and a few others to the grave.


It was certainly unexpected and chaos did ensue after the bombing with the concert being in a disarray and confusion along with grief. Honestly, if I was in the situation Ariana Grande was in, I would shut myself away from the world in mourning and trauma from having people die on their way to the concert I’m responsible for but  Ariana did something that proves that humanity is not going to shit after 50 years.

Organizing a benefit concert for the grieving families and raising money to compensate them for their loses.


I am a fan of Ariana with myself going through my Arianator phase and now, still enjoys her music so when I heard of this, I felt my heart squeeze a little. I can’t even begin to imagine how it must be like for the concert attendees, having to witness such a scene when they’re looking forward to see their favorite artist perform.

True to her word, Ariana managed to pull some strings to organize the benefit concert straight after the tragedy and get some of the most popular artists such as Miley Cyrus, Katy Perry, Little Mix, Justin Bieber, Coldplay to perform for the concert.

They performed melancholic songs in respect for the dearly departed with slowed down or acoustic versions of songs as well as having duets such as ‘Don’t Dream Its Over’ which did prove to be an emotional roller coaster for both the artists and the listener.


Although I’m an advocate for free will and all that crap but seriously? When the freaking universe gives you fire, you don’t make an explosive bomb with it! I mean both in literal and metaphorical sense.

Especially considering that quite a few of those who passed away were children that looked no older than 15-16. The decision to let such youth die says a lot about society in the current times. Children that are innocent, have to bear the burden of one mistake and that also leaves their families, grieving their kids, their siblings, their family.

I know I’m still very young and probably have no right to say that I understand the world, lacking knowledge in many things such as 4Chan and why people hate cheese but I know enough to understand that we, human kind are pretty much on the road to extinction if we keep this act up.

To quote an anime that has provided many humans with a lot of wisdom and inspiration.

“We’re going to explore the outside world someday, right? Far beyond these walls, there’s flaming water, land made of ice, and fields of sand spread wide. It’s the world my parents wanted to go to.”
-Armin Arelet (Shingeki no Kyojin)-


Yeah, no Armin. Beyond those tall tall walls are suicide bombers and suicidal wars, you’ll probably have a better chance of survival within the walls where the internet doesn’t exist.

 I simply don’t understand what is there to gain from disruption of peace and causing chaos, what’s wrong with a little slice of life? Is life really that boring that you HAVE to make it a game where lives are simply pawns for you to sacrifice?

I don’t care if you’re a terrorist, an atheist, a religion-ist, female, male, straight, gay or whatever. All that’s matters is what you’ve done and how that impacts others. The whole situation is just the icing on cake and again, a retelling of our past mistakes.

Did propaganda not teach us that words are simply lies wrapped in pretty pink packaging and that wars do not benefit anyone, let alone serve a purpose other than to pass time with. Killing others will not prove a message nor will it support a cause, killing is just killing and killing someone makes you a murderer.


I may not have a proper soul but I am not a murderer, that much I know. Murderers carry the guilt of their victims on their shoulders. Wars bring only murderers as the end result, just because you believe that what you’re doing is going to help your ’cause’ or have a positive end result doesn’t mean that there won’t be consequences.

God, I must sound like some sort of hippie or preacher now but I only speak what I believe in and even though I think everyone has the right to freedom and the ability to choose the path to your life but god damn, idiocy makes freedom scrambled into some kind of paper that gives them the right to doing whatever the fuck they want.

Point is, life moves on. We cannot dwell on the past and we should instead think for the betterment of our future. Bombers, serial killers, death, how does that contribute to increasing the intelligence of the human race?

Instead of building homemade bombs, think of ways to create flying cars, hover boards, teleportation pads and create a ‘Back To The Future’ today.

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But its times like this where we, humans of the same species can bond over a grim social issue and rather than portray ignorance, we try our best to comfort and grieve over the fallen. Perhaps if every issue was treated in the same way, the world would be not as fucked up as it will be in the distant future.






Sun, Surf and slightly shitty luck

So today, I went on an outing to a water park with a few of my friends to celebrate one of their birthdays and I should’ve already predicted that the day was going to go swimmingly. Hah…get it? Swimming? Water? N-Never-mind, blame the chlorine.


Due to certain mishaps that happened, two of my friends were unable to go to the outing which left only 4 people including me. But no matter, I thought innocently, at least I’ll be able to have fun!

Oh god was a mistake, right it was.

Because once we entered the water park, we teamed up to ride the rides, I was with…let’s call her, Ness. And no, this is not some kind of mean reference to her name but rather finding it hard to find a nickname for her without revealing too much information.

So, Ness and I decided to ride this ‘not-so-scary’ float ride that looked something like this


Unfortunately for me, we had to climb the really high tower before we could reach the ride and considering that I was a 5ft 1′ tall hobbit and Ness was like 6ft tall, the height difference as we carried the huge float as we climbed mount Everest was painstakingly annoying. When we slid down the first time, we didn’t actually go so high so even though I was scared, it wasn’t that bad.

The second time, on the other hand, we somehow fell sideways and we also went super high so picture this. The float fell down, somehow turned horizontally, went about 50 ft in the air and one of the seats was broken and you couldn’t see the drop. Now, add in some screaming from every MC in horror movies and you have the scenario I was in that moment. So practically, me and Ness were screaming our heads off like One Direction fangirls who found a piece of paper that Harry Styles’s touched.


That wasn’t the end to my trauma, oh no, after that, we decided to try out another ride that went all twisty and had this high wall part so of course, I was shitting myself but because I thought that it wouldn’t be that bad, I went on it.

Again, an omen reminded me that it would be a bad idea to take the ride again as we were the only group who’s float got stuck in the tunnel and had to wait for the helper guy to push us through. I used to have this whole theory that omens would predict bad luck that was about to happen to me so naturally, I was hesitant.


A little background on the ride, there were two paths that we could take as we were sliding down. One of them was the least scary ride with only twists and the other one was a twisty tunnel and a huge drop straight into a spider-man wall cling.

And the omen guessed right. The first time we rode the ride, it was the milder path while the second time we went on the ride, we got the DEATH DROP. Ironically, before we sat on the float my friend told me to pick a seat where I would be more stable but for some reason, I was the only to have water spray me directly in my face and cause me to swallow some feet water which was about as pleasant as it sounds.


Then on the third time we rode the ride, because daredevils, the float for some reason, flipped horizontally again and guess who had the worse deal in the situation? Yours truly. I was the one highest in the float as compared to the others and of course, air physics and gravity had to choose today out of all the days to work properly and that meant that I was about to fall out of my float which would probably end in tragedy.

If I did not cling onto the handles for dear life, I would’ve fell out of the float and slammed into the wall and this time, I was not exaggerating, I was so close to actually sliding off the float and was pretty much floating for five seconds.


Apart from my newly upgraded phobia of heights, I also sustained actual injuries during the lazing around in the water. I somehow acquired a nosebleed which would probably answer the question to why the lifeguard was looking at me weirdly. I didn’t realize it but somehow, the combination of chlorine, sun and lack of water had affected my head which resulted in my unexpected nosebleed.


I then scrapped my legs knee against the wall enough times to welcome a new wound to my already damaged which are tanned to the colour of lobsters.

But hey enough depressing downer talk, let’s review the positives of the outing!

We went and ate at this amazeballs restaurant that had these weird food combinations that you could order for the low low price of $6.80 and this led to my decision to combine spaghetti with Japanese curry, cheese and scrambled eggs which…was actually pretty good not gonna lie. I wish I had a picture to show you peeps but it was so good that I had set a new record for the fastest eating of spaghetti with Japanese curry, cheese and scrambled eggs, probably.

But fear not because I had taken some pictures of hipster-styled useless-I mean, artistic photographs of my Iced Lemon Tea which wasn’t bad but I didn’t like tea so I gave it a pass and instead tried to wrestle in getting the lemon out of the tea which got me some weird looks.

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But then! All was not over yet! There was still desert left, the wondrous, beautiful creation that is called rainbow ice-cream. Yes, you heard me, R.A.I.N.B.O.W. ICE-CREAM

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And my friend, the birthday girl, she has the best luck in the entire universe which is also ironic since she’s friends with me, one of the unluckiest creatures in the galaxy. The rainbow, unicorn sparkle sparkle, キラキラ, きらきら, ice cream is not usually available in the restaurant and for some reason, on that one day did they happen to have it.



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So I may have gotten a little crazy by taking so many ice cream photos, sue me but you know deep in your hearts that this is one of the most beautiful things you have every seen. Flavour wise, it was a mix of mango, bubblegum, maybe chocolate? My taste-buds have never been so confused before but it tasted good.

So this experience certainly has its ups and downs, ahem, literally but one thing I will say for sure, I will never look at escalators in the same way ever again.




YURI ON ICE!!! Art tribute Part 1

Now, I’m no Pablo Picasso but I do think that I have decent drawing skills especially when it comes to fan art. I actually started drawing since I was very young and only recently started using digital art programmes rather than a pencil and paper to draw and certainly takes some getting used to especially with a mouse.

So here are my first few drawings I did using Firealpaca and a mouse in tribute to one of my favorite anime series, Yuri On Ice!!! Oh and this is only the first part, I will try to draw more of the other characters like Otabek, Chris and Minami etc. so look forward to more blog posts with artwork.


This was the base I drew before colouring in the details such as hair and clothes etc. Now, a fact I will tell you is that eyes or anything circular, drawing it freestyle with a mouse is pretty much close to impossible if you expect perfect circle on the first try.

The eyes of Yuuri, Victor and Yurio took a long while to complete because me being a stubborn fool, I refused to use the cheat tool and instead chose the painful route of free drawing everything from scratch.

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The tedious process of coloring is tedious with the shading, ensuring that there is no white spots and such.



I had used a reference picture for both Yuuri and Yurio for the positions of their hair and clothes but I switched things up a bit and gave them new facial expressions especially the eyes which I created based on a combination inspired by many artists such as Tim Burton and LavenderTowne, a brilliant artist on YouTube and because Victor’s middle man position was based on how he was the tallest and his flirty personality in the show.

Oh and due to hearing many plagiarism stories, I decided to add my watermark to the artwork as you can see with the M and H which of course, stands for Mad Hatter or Mishatventures which both stand for my name.


The next piece of artwork is a picture of Yurio in the short film/ teaser I suppose, called “Welcome to the madness” which is a short manga that comes along with the box set of Yuri On Ice!!!. It shows how Yurio, bitter at Yuuri for breaking the short program record and asked for Otabek’s assistance in helping him form a badass, unexpected programme for the skating exhibtion. This led to Yurio skating to a rock song that Yurio was inspired by as he stalks Otabek to a club and doing an insane performance with Otabek doing a cameo as did Victor with Yuuri.

The video can be found on YouTube and if you want to read the manga, I’m pretty sure there are translated versions of them online if you search them up. Either way, I loved Yurio is his ‘Russian Rock Punk’ getup and adore all the fanservice given to the Otayuri shippers when Otabek bites off Yurio’s glove and such.

The picture above was a beginning sketch to the reference picture below. At first I wanted to do a copy repaint of the picture but I decided to incoporate a little of my art style which is kinda cartoonish yet holds aspects of the original by changing the eyes and hands a little.




If you want to know, I used the ‘blur’ tool for the background and airbrush for the eyes while I coloured everything else in pen oh and for the sequin-thingy on yurio’s shirt, I dotted the shapes using pen. Dot by dot.


Next we have Yuuri in the pair skate exhibition outfit with Victor. Not going to lie, I squealed like a newborn piglet when the caress of the face scene happened. It was just so cute and I loved how they redid Victor’s performance at the beginning of the anime by combining the two skaters into one. Frankly, the colours were a bit dodgy. You might not have noticed due to the lighting but Yuuri’s hair was actually purple! Goddamn purple!



AND COMPLETED. Each picture takes an average of 1-2 days to draw and this is already pretty simple so I can sympathize with the animators of Yuri on ice, drawing each frame must be hell.





Oh wait.




Yeah there’s something off about Victor’s face but since I’m very tired and spent hours trying to fix Yuuri’s hand, I kinda gave up halfway through. Hands are an artists enemy. Except for one of my classmates, she’s superior in drawing action poses and hands.\

I will say that trying to draw sexy eyes in my art style is kinda close to impossible and will probably get rid of any fantasies of Victor in Yuuri’s mind. God, I’m sorry to have defiled this beautiful anime being that your hands have spent years creating and sculpting.

FEAR NOT, Your eyes will be cleansed with the next drawing!



I actually drew this in I think an hour or probably less than that due to the simplicity of the drawing and that Makkachin does not have any cucumber fingers or floppy hair. Instead, you get a super cute poodle! Once again, I used blur tool for the paw prints and snow in the background.


I wanted to do more but the amount of time it takes to even draw one drawing is a really really long time so leave some comments or don’t…its okay, I’ll be forever alone. If you have screenshots of fandom that you would like for me to draw, feel free to ask me and I’ll try my best not to disfigure them!







13 Reasons why I dislike 13 Reasons why PART ONE


The title doesn’t exactly roll off your tongue does it?

’13 Reasons why has been a teenage Tumblr fest with it being a sickeningly depressing glorification of suicide and depression’, at least, that’s what the rumor was. It was originally a novel written by Jay Asher in the perspective  of Hannah, a girl who gets bullied by many to the point of committing suicide and leaving cassette tapes behind to pour guilt onto those who caused her change in emotional state.

The main reason why many choose to watch the show is due to the fact that Selena Gomez is one of the producers to the show which will either bring a lot of controversy or fans due to her being a famous singer but also, her name being clickbait to pull people to watch the show

Even though many on Goodreads have branded the book to be ‘An abomination to mankind and a nuclear explosion of hipsters’, I decided to give the TV show a try based on my curiosity on why there is a split in the opinions of many.

AND SO, fast forward to the present. Well..sort of. I’m updating this list as I watch the show because before I finished the first episode, I had already wished that Hannah was replaced by the other Hanna from Pretty Little Liars.






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Not trying to sound like a prepubescent teen but Hannah is eerily similar to Bella from Twilight in terms of facial expressions and their sensitivity. Of course, Hannah is more ‘edgy’ and ‘sassy’ due to her never-ending sarcastic remarks found on comebacks.com but she is also lacking in many departments, one of them is a life outside of love.

Its incredibly off-putting to how Hannah who just moved to the town, instantly falls in love with the guy nearest to her to the point where she would do anything just to gain his attention. For example, Hannah says in her tapes that she stalked Justin’s schedule and pretended to like basketball ‘ALL FOR HIM’. Which part of this sentence sounds wrong? Hannah is too preoccupied with her instant attraction with Justin and I mean seriously, what does she even know about that guy other than that he’s cute.

I get that the show’s trying to portray the relationships realistically but in no way does love actually work like that between teenagers. There must be some sort of mutual attraction or unrequited crush before any love happens. Before moving to the town, did Hannah have any sort of life before being wrapped around Justin’s finger? She also ‘plays hard to get’ which I do not understand in the context that Hannah actually likes Justin so what point is there in rejecting all his advances? If Hannah’s goal was to make her not seem desperate then she needs to reevaluate her life goals.


The fact that she is playing hard to get also does not fall in with the point that literally, right after she talks with Justin and gets to know him more, she succumbs to sex with him and accuse the listener to thinking that she is a slut when in actuality, it was just her first kiss. Frankly, I do think that she is moving way too fast in terms of a romantic relationship with a stranger that she had not talked to with for more than a few days.

This is how Bella and Hannah are similar. Both of them have an instant attraction to hot guys who are complete strangers. The least they could do is slow down the show or put in some edited clips to show the growing bond between Hannah and Justin before jumping to the next part where my point continues.



Hold my earrings because we’ve got a pretentious princess in our midst


Now as much as I LOVE and I say that extremely sarcastically, sarcastic characters, I expect them to hold a degree of confidence and there is a scene in the first episode of 13RW that has me going



And that scene is right after Hannah’s photos gets leaked to the public. Need I add that the photos are extreme only to a certain extent with the photos being of Hannah kissing and up her skirt where I sympathize with her but also question her choice in sliding down a slide while wearing a skirt.

Either way, Hannah sits with Clay and sparks a conversation with him but gets all offended when Clay mentions about how Hannah should have ‘waited’ in reference to the pictures. Ironically enough, five seconds before, he says that he’s socially awkward.


Hannah is extremely pretentious here by going all philosophical and saying that “I don’t think you’re socially awkward at all. I think you’re just scared. I think you’re waiting.”. Okay then miss Confucius, tell me what does social awkwardness have to do with waiting?

She judges someone as easily as they judge her. From her words, it is implied that she thinks that Clay’s lack of social skills is due to his fear of being social rather than just preferring to be alone. The way she speaks it also shows how she views Clay to be inferior to her based on social skills by naming him as ‘scared’.

Fact: No real teenager actually says deep shit like that and expect your friend to not go all ‘WTFF?!’ or “BITCHSLAPPED’ on them.

Strangely enough, when Hannah gets called out by Clay by a snide remark, she goes all 360 bitch mode on him and states that ‘you really hurt my feelings.” Well Jolly-fucking-good. Now you two are equal.



Bitchy friends of a feather, flock like assholes together (Judgmental)

I had already addressed this in the previous point but I feel like its best to talk about it again now that I’ve watched episode 2. Before, I thought Hannah was annoying but combine her with Jessica and we have a whole gang of shitheads. Jessica is the stereotypical best friend of Hannah that somehow enhances Hannah’s rudeness.

In the cafe scene, Hannah and Jessica discover a boy watching them and instantly believes him to be attracted to them therefore striking up a conversation with him and forcing him to admit which one of them he likes. Hannah’s judgmental side appears again with her mentioning that because he was alone, ‘He was weird’. Way to go, all around great heroine that totally does not call people out based on first impressions which by the way, he admits that he is alone because he’s new in town.



When Hannah and Clay talk during work, Hannah gets all salty when Clay stutters to answer her question on whether she can be “as pretty as Jessica Davis” which is probably due to Clay getting flustered and saying that “she’s special” which she probably is, at least to him.

She then twists his words into making it sound like he’s saying she’s “retarded” which makes me want to kick her PMSing ass to Pluto because she’s just so unbelievably quick to judge before hearing the entire story. She then adds insult to injury by snarkily saying that “I saw you try to be kind and, you know, fail.” which was fucking rude considering he was trying to cheer her up and instantly got shut down.

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Hannah then proceeds to insult Clay in every way possible to the point where half of the things that come out of her mouth don’t even make sense half the time. I mean this is literally what she says “It’s how you’re socialized. I keep thinking you’re some different kind of male. Clearly, there’s no such thing”.


Huh. Supernatural does have a gif for everything.

Either way, half of the things that come out of her mouth belong on a ‘DEPRESSEDOWNER13’ blog post on tumblr and not actually in real life. It just strikes me as odd to how adult writers believe that such profound, sophisticated language can appear from the esophagus of a tatter tot. And yes, I did that on purpose.

Either way, Hannah views Clay as just a simpleton male which is quite amusing coming from someone who snogged a boy within 5 minutes of the show. She sees the whole male species as a whole rather than an individual which is rather close minded and stupid considering she’s overeating over every small thing.

Next we have Jessica who’s a half-twit in a lot of ways but to be honest, I don’t hate her as much as the other critics,surprisingly enough because I can understand what she’s going through. To those who disagree, I acknowledge the fact that she, like Hannah jumps to conclusions way too fast. Personally, I would rather she shove off.


I mean, the fact that she accuses Hannah of causing her break up alongside with the list is just pure delusional and the fact that she can’t accept her fate and instead blame it on Hannah is mere idiocy but I can also understand where she’s coming from yet at the same time don’t. Unlike a certain someone, Jessica is stronger in the mind however she is also very prone to mental breakdowns and as researching is a hobby of mine, don’t ask why, I have found out that many a times, people tend to blame others for their misfortune.

Same goes for Hannah, she blames others for the bullying rather than finding a way to solve it herself but I’ll get to that part later. Jessica’s problem is that she doesn’t want to believe the truth even when its right in front of her eyes. People are easily convinced and brainwashed to believe certain things for example, Jessica claims that Hannah was the sole cause to the breakup between her and Alex, even claiming that “How could you betray me like that? Is it you and Alex now?”. She is neurotic in her answer and suffers from the grief of losing a beloved boyfriend however her attitude to the situation, even if she was suffering, she could’ve considered the situation before blaming Hannah.

You know how assuming makes an ASS out of U and I. Well, it made a BITCH out of JES and SICA.


The characters are all simply unlikable, that goes out for Clay as well but I’ll continue that discussion in the next blog post. Frankly, this blog post sounds like its written by an angsty teenager who hates everything mainstream but I assure you that I’m not angsty, I’m just edgy.

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Anime that I adore of 2017-

-At least for now.

While 2016 has been a pretty good year for anime with One Punch Man, Boku No Hero Academia, Boku Dake Ga Inai Machi (Erased), Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu, Bungou Stray dogs season 2, Shokugeki No Souma season 2 and obviously YURI ON ICE!!!

2017 may seem bland in comparison especially with half of the year already gone.

So for now with my obsession of the year being everything Japanese, I will list down the anime of 2017 that I like so far, bear in mind that this is just my opinion and if you don’t agree with this list, feel free to say your own opinion in the comments below. Keep in mind that the main ones are first seasons because its obvious that those with second seasons are good enough to have a second season. Ooh tongue twister. I’ll put it in honorable mentions though.


In no particular order, I present to you my favorites of 2017!





I just love this show. Even though the slice of life genre is strong with this anime, I still enjoyed it regardless of the lengthy episodes of shopping, mundane conversations and a chunk of lesbian moments which has the fandom flooding in their own nosebleed.

The story is of Kobayashi and how she saves a dragon called Tooru who tries to pay back the favor back by being a maid. Its an incredibly heartwarming tale of a salary woman who becomes friends with abnormalities that are seen as beasts or monsters. Its definitely very bittersweet and plays with the theme of family and friendship. As well as other more morbid themes which I will not spoil but it carries out the themes pretty well.

The ending did cause my heart to ache and was incredibly depressing the more I thought about it but it does make you think about the topic of future and what would happen after ya’ know that. 

I love the art style and the bright colors which does help to convey the happy and cheerful atmosphere of the anime so if you like magical girl, slice of life style anime, this is one I will definitely recommend for you to watch.

Rating: 8/10 Only because I did find the episodes a bit lengthy and the ending a tad bit rushed but other than that, its a solid anime.






Mere words can’t describe how good this anime is, the title of this anime basically describes the whole plot of the anime if you can figure it out. Either way, its definitely worth at least a try.

The plot goes as follows, our MC, Jean is a member of ACCA, a inspection agency where the members scouts out different social problems or issues with the different districts sort of like peacekeepers in the Hunger Games. The plot is rather complicated with many plot twists and turns in the story which will either make your head do a complete 360 or stare intensely at the screen, rewinding the anime back 30 times trying to figure out what they’re saying.

The anime is quite slow paced and I had to pick it up again and again in order to finish it and sometimes, you feel a little overwhelmed by the multitude of plot twists in every episode but its worth watching till the end where everything is revealed.


One thing I have to complain about is that at times, I have to take a breather to collect my thoughts because the anime is very unevenly paced with normality and then BAM, you have a riot. The characters are quite lovable with the exception to their unhealthy smoking habits, I swear to god, Jean has like an endless stash of cigarettes or something. Quite ironically, cigarettes play quite an important role in the anime, eventually.


I do love the art design and the soft colors that are used in the anime. Especially how simple and relaxed the color palette is with the storytelling. Its a beautiful anime that focuses more on the story aspect rather than sellouts like harems or romance. But to the average anime viewer, the art style may not resemble the typical modern anime one and may be a turn off but keep in mind that you shouldn’t judge a book by its cover.

Rating: 7.5/10 I would not recommend this if you despise slow, military based anime.




One of my all time favorites. This is an awesome anime that would put any shounen anime to shame. I mean, take a look at the gif and tell me if that is not freaking cool?!

Now for all you history nerds out there, this anime is for you. The story starts in modern Japan with our MC being a salary man that is considered ‘evil’ with his dismissal of his coworkers in terms of feelings and firing them with a flick of his fingers. Just before he is about to die, God or ‘being X’ as the MC refers to, sends him to an alternate universe in order to force him to regain his faith in him. But there’s a catch, if she dies in the new world, she will never be reborn again.

In this universe, she gets reborn as Tanya von Degurechaff, a tiny blonde girl who volunteers herself into the military as a ‘mage’ which is basically a flying solider in that world.

Don’t be fooled by her adorable appearance, Tanya is actually pure evil with her intentions being to destroy any enemy in her way in order to get a comfortable position as top solider in the ranks. Unfortunately, Being X has his eye on her does whatever he can to ensure that she will die.


If this isn’t an interesting plot, I don’t know what is. In fact, I can summarize the entire plot in 5 words. Girl Hitler dominates the world.

The creator of Youjo Senki or Saga of Tanya the Evil, is very careful in ensuring that the entire story reflects world war II and how the tiny details play a big part in the story. Tanya despite being pure evil as the title suggests, is actually likable which is quite a feat considering this tiny girl is the reincarnation of Hitler.

Now, the art direction is an interesting one. The appearance of Tanya and Viktoriya is both incredibly adorable but there’s something off-putting about twisted the facial expressions can become. I will say that the art isn’t my favorite but it is certainly unique. In comparison to the manga and light novel, the anime’s art style is far from perfect but it carries out the tone of the anime quite well.


Rating: 10/10 I seldom give 10/10s due to me being a harsh critic so when I say something is good, oh you know its gonna be good and besides, I swear to Hitler’s mustache that there better be a season 2!



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This goes out to all my fujoshis and fudanshis out there! MY PEOPLE! REPRESENT!


Reasons to why you should watch this anime. Other than the obvious bishounens and yaoi pairings, it has a pretty interesting story to support its click-bait material.

Enter our lovable hobbit Bilbo Baggins-I mean…Haine Sensei who’s just arrived at the palace on demand of the king to tutor the four princes on how to properly rule the kingdom. Its pretty much a battle royale situation among the princes on who gets to rule the kingdom as successor to the king. Haine has his work cut out for him with him metaphorically being the nanny McPhee to each prince, helping to sort out their flaws. There’s also this whole subplot with Haine having some kind of tragic backstory leading up to his arrival to the palace.

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The anime has really vibrant colors used in its shading and character design with each character being an ikemen and being obvious eye candy. Especially the king whose name might I add is Viktor and although he’s suppose to be super old, he looks nothing more than 20. I swear, everyone named Victor or Viktor has some sort of special genetics that allows them to never age and look frackin attractive.


Rating: 8/10 This is the current rating for the latest episode so it might change depending how they toy with Haine Sensei’s backstory.




This a tricky anime to tackle because there’s one thing that separates this anime from the others. This is a Chinese dubbed anime which was made, both in animation and story by a Chinese company, G.CMay Animation & Film. There is controversy over this anime as many otakus are highly attached to the original Japanese dubbed because other than the sound, there is no difference in art style. I personally don’t hate the dub just because for once, I can finally understand what they’re saying!

But I understand their stance on the situation as it does sound a bit off with the dub being in Chinese just solely because I don’t like Chinese and that I suck at Chinese but I’m assuming others just like hearing the Japanese because it flows smoother and anime after all, is Japanese.

Now onto the review of the story! Xiu Ye is known as the ‘god’ of the online multiplayer video game ‘Glory’ and is beloved by all of the players however, his team decides to spontaneously force him into retiring through making another popular player take his place and announce his retirement to the whole world. Xiu Ye being an avid gamer, refuses to fade away and instead makes a new character from scratch and get back his top position in the gaming world.


For any gamer or geek like myself, this rings clear of the E-sports world where many gamers would compete to be the top player in competitions such as World of Warcraft or League of Legends or recently, Overwatch. This also shies from all of the RPG video game-styled anime like AHEM…Sword Art Online or Log Horizon which is still on my to watch list. Mind you, I will finish the list one day.


For now, its pretty good. Not gonna lie, I live for Ye Qiu’s badass moments where he fights with a damn umbrella. AN. UMBRELLA.  A GODDAMN UMBRELLA.



Now, those who aren’t gamers or enjoy playing video games now and then as a hobby probably can’t understand the appeal of having the concept of an E-sports styled anime but everyone can probably enjoy the fight sequences.

The art is pretty similar to the modern anime art style and if you removed the voices, I bet none would be the wiser however, one thing stands out quite clearly in the anime. How weirdly pieced together the story was, I mean maybe it was just me but you would think that at least one person would notice that Ye Qiu was obviously the gaming god.

Seriously the female character picks up an ID of this guy who’s name was one letter off the gaming god’s name and has OP gaming skills. DING DING DING, oh I know he’s maybe the gaming god-nah. No way in hell pfftttt. Also the characters are very spread out with most of them being extremely focused on APM (Actions per minute) or experience grinding to even properly take a look at the MC’s backstory. I mean, 5 minutes after he was kicked out from his gaming team, he instantly goes to an internet cafe.



In fact, he is just too chill to the point where I’m not sure if he has any personality aside from being badass. I mean, he is extremely talented at the game but, other than the game, he doesn’t seem to have anything else to define him which makes sense I suppose but sometimes, he’s just. so. boring. Like, he is so emotionless to the point where his not-a- girlfriend-girl friend has to be emotional in his place.

Side note: Ye Qiu and the not-a-girlfriend-girl friend Mu Cheng both look like Kirito and Asuna I mean, just look.


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I get that he’s old and probably less surprised but he could deal with a little more personality like I do like his teasing but sometimes, the voice and lines don’t really match like for example, Oikawa from Haikyuu, he’s extremely talented at volleyball but is also chill and immature at the same time. Or he’s the emotionless genius, he could be more like L from Death Note who has his moments or Ram from Re:Zero.

Point is, something is just off to me about his personality because for some reason, everyone else outshines him on the topic of personality because since this anime focuses solely on gaming, the character development must be strong.

Although his personality is probably shown in about every shoujo anime ever with the cool love interest but personally, I just don’t like emotionless, too mature characters, they just seem 2D and bland.

Rating: 6/10 Only because its interesting only to the immersed gamer and not to the average everyday viewer.






Well, right now I’m laying off anime for a while until I find a series worth binge watching and before you say Hunter X Hunter, I’m working on it okay? 200 episodes kinda take a while to watch through.

If I don’t make a post by tomorrow, please send help.




The origin story to how I discovered Anime

Because I’m the socially awkward geek the Internet deserves, but not the one it needs right now. Because I can take it, because I’m not a social butterfly . I’m a silent guardian, a watchful protector, a Dark Knight.


On a more serious note, Anime. If you do not know what Anime is, I have but one question for you. Have you been living under a rock?

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Anime make up a large quarter of the internet with the otakus (fans of Japanese anime, manga etc.) being found in every nook and cranny of the web. The Japanese cartoons have become widespread and is highly appreciated by every nerd.

Myself, I dearly love anime and not only because my obsession of the year is currently everything Japanese but also because it has played a significant part in my childhood which I remember clearly.

When I was at a really really young age, around 7? I had just discovered YouTube and even though I was behind on trends, I could figure out how to watch cartoons on YouTube as well as Minecraft game play videos which will be another story.

Now, keep in mind that fetus Hat was an innocent, untainted human bean so when I first discovered Anime, you could say that it…changed my perspective on life, forever.

The first Anime I’ve watched was a dubbed version of Mermaid Forest and maybe Mermaid Scar as well which are both OVAs of the Mermaid Saga, a series of Manga written by Rumiko Takahashi.

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Side note: Manga= Comic styled books or graphic novels that are written in Japanese and read from back to front. OVAs= Original video animation of short film/animated excerpt from a manga series or light novel.

If you’ve watched the OVAs, you would know that’s its pretty gory with the horror aspect shown blatantly in the twisted modifications on the ‘mermaids’ as well as how, sexual it is? I mean the girls remove their clothes before going in the water to become mermaids so there’s that.

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Fun fact: Mermaids in Japanese culture are not the red-headed Ariel we’re all used to but rather a beastly fish-like monster that is rumored to give immortality when eaten. Yeah, EATEN. Now that’ll put a damper on you the next time you watch The Little Mermaid.


Minor spoilers but read ahead if you don’t want to get spoiled.

The plot of Mermaid’s forest goes like this. Yuta, our main hero, who’s no Goku or Saitama, has heard about the myth that eating mermaid’s flesh can give oneself immunity to all harm. His friends and himself end up finding and eating the flesh however, there is one problem. They didn’t realize that the mermaid’s flesh is a gamble, on one hand, there is the prospect of immortality but on the other hand, if the mermaid flesh gets rejected in the body of the consumer, the consumer will either be poisoned or get turned into a misshaped, ghastly beast known as lost souls. A shadow of their former selves. Yuta’s comrades turn into Lost souls while nothing happened to Yuta and he eventually forgets of his consumption of mermaid’s flesh, taking up a wife who unlike him, grows older with time.

Then begins his journey to find a mermaid to reverse the effects of the mermaid’s flesh and return him to his former age. On the way, he meets Mana, a girl hidden away by mermaids and he rescues her and thus, the two immortals become travelling companions and continue on their quest for a cure.


I was a big fan of Mermaids and mystical creatures when I was younger so watching this, did not specially cause any trauma-no, maybe a tiny bit but it was enjoyable? I think? I knew that I was hooked enough on it to remember it years after I’ve watched it so I did like the story and the early 2000s sailor moon-esque art style.

Of course, back then, I didn’t know that this was anime and I never did tell my parents about my secret watch session but thinking back, if I had showed them the anime, I’m sure that they would’ve locked me up in a (GOTHAM) asylum.



Fun fact: The gif above is an actual clip from the OVA. This is how the mermaids look like. Try imagining this in the mind of a kid.

Of course, this anime, despite being the reason to my warp in personality, has a soft spot in my heart for being an absolute masterpiece both in storytelling and art. Modern anime watchers may not agree with me on this point but in my humble opinion, anime doesn’t have to be gorgeous and have a harem of tits to be enjoyable.

Rating: 9.5/10 only because its an OVA and not a series.